There is no place like the beginning to start informing you on how nutrition and supplements helped play a role in getting my body into it's first remission. I say first remission because now that it has flared up so badly my daily functioning has been affected, I am hoping once again to get my body back to health again. BELIEVE. This will be the word for me. I will never stop believing because once I do that I allow this dreaded disease to rule my life. It may think it has hold of me now as I lie in this bed and surrender momentarily but it is just one of my secret weapons I am using towards it right now. REST. When your body is telling you to rest....you need to do just that...rest. There will be a time once again when I do not spend most of my days in this bed. Right now I do get out and about, but only when a Physical Therapy appointment calls for it or a need to go out to a store. Which since October 8 of this year has only added up to 14 times. In less than 2 months time. But the upside of that is...I can do so without any aid of any kind. With makeup on and nice clothes no one would think there is anything wrong with me and that is one of the sad things about MS. People say to you (and they mean no harm) "but you look so good"! I choose now to take it as a compliment and not take offense like I did 26 years ago when one would say those words to me. I would in the past get defensive of it. But in my maturity over the years I have grown to realize by wearing these shoes that unless they ever experience it for themselves they will never know. So the energies I put into feeling badly or trying to defend that I did indeed feel bad and I was sick and tired of being sick and tired, I finally stopped feeling I needed to defend myself and not let those words hurt. Because just like I do not know what the heart patient feels like, or the cancer patient, or the depressed patient, these people saying these words to me meant no harm. I never wish any illness on anyone. I wish health for all. We all have our crosses to bear and one of mine just happens to be MS. I am a survivor of this illness but now I am working on becoming victorious once again of it. Not mentally overcoming it, I do not struggle that way with the illness. My struggles are physically right now. And I will win again. With the Lords help and prayers of my own and my friends and family I will have my energies back. Time. Perhaps God is speaking to me to take more time for myself? I will listen to see if I can hear Him. I will learn from Him and I know that He will use me to help more people in the future. This is why I believe we go through these illnesses. To help others when they need help. So Lord use me as you see fit.I am Yours.
When I was 31 I had an accident while horse back riding. The horse I was riding decided it did not want to jump over a small gully while on the trail. It had hesitated 2x. The guide on the trail said come on so this is what I did and once on the other side my horse took off running and took me under a tree branch which knocked me straight off the horses back and down to the ground I went. I landed on my back hitting not only my back but the back of my head. Embarrassed was I, after a brief moment of being on the ground I rolled myself up, felt jolts of electricity running throughout my body, but I was embarrassed. My husband came to my aid along with the guide. I got up on my husbands horse and rode in with him. To look at me I was not injured. but there was a gash of skin taken out of my lower abdomen (in later years I had a tattoo placed over it as sort of a memory (not that I needed one) as to what has caused this disease to start in my body. The electric currents ran through my body for days on end. My hip was out of line and hurt when walking. 6 months later after I had turned 32 I went to a neurologist. I had been the most physically fit from age 29 till this time that I ever had been in my lifetime. I ran 6 miles a day, 3 in the morning and 3 in the early evening. I was a body builder and lifted weights, did Nautilus machines, did aerobics, rode a bike the same path I ran each day. I was the best I could be and I had tremendous energies. I think because of my body being in such good shape and I was such a limber, agile person that I did not get hurt more from the fall. But what people could not see was the fact that my central nervous system was damaged in the fall. Doctors will not say the fall caused or lead to my MS but they will not say that it did not either. The feelings of electric current and numbness and tingling I felt after the accident are the same feelings along with other symptoms that came back to haunt me 6 months later. Immediately after the accident when my hip was better I started running again. I would leave for my run and get a block or 2 away from home and get weak in my arms and legs and loose my balance and turn around and walk home. I would rest for a bit. Try again. Same thing kept happening. Gradually over the summer I stopped or was not able to anymore do any type of exercise. I stayed on the couch all day sleeping off & on. The heat from the summer bothered me and made me extremely weak. I went from a mom who took her 7 year old son to the pool everyday to one who would find any excuse not to leave the house because of not being able to stay in the sun. It would make me feel worse when I would go. This started to cause arguments with the husband because he still saw a wife that looked healthy and just thought I did not want to go with him and our son to the pool.
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